Monday, April 09, 2007

Al Fatihah

My bother-in-law passed away at 1414 today. He was on the ventilator for the past 5 days.

He went away with only me by his side. We were moving around, meeting doctors and relatives. Asked how long he could last, the doctor told me not till tomorrow. Mom-in-law told me a nurse said with that low BP, only 3 hours.

I don't know what prompted me to go in. I was standing there, looking at the monitor. I felt like saying something to him, but I just continued reading some verses from the Quran.

I was there for barely 1 minute when I saw the heart rate went from 34 to 0, then 19, then 0 again. I was still trying to comprehend that, when a nurse walked in and nodded to a doctor who was sitting outside the room.

The doctor then touched my elbow and said she was sorry, my BIL was gone. I've been strong so far, I only cried for my mom-in-law who just lost her son. But I also cried when I related the story of he went away, when I was there to a friend, why me and not someone else, not even mom-in-law. She said he chose to go with me besides him maybe as a way to thank me as I was the one who spent most time with him during his illness.

I can go on and on, but I have to go now. Knowing him, I know he just want us to move on.

Al Fatihah.


Anonymous lillian said...

I'm so sorry, and praying you have space and time to grieve your loss and the strength to go on

6:02 PM  
Blogger Queen Of The House said...

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojioon ...

Ros, I am so sorry for your family's loss. You have been such a pillar of strength to your BIL and the family and I pray that you will continue to be so for the family during this very sad time.

I can understand how you feel being the only one there at his time of passing. Be thankful that at least someone from the family was with him.

I can only offer my condolences and Al-Fatihah. Please be strong.

6:56 PM  
Anonymous sofhib said...

Al-Fatihah to arwah.

8:24 AM  
Blogger anamiraa said...

it's only for the best. because allah plans it so.
take care.

9:49 AM  
Blogger D said...

Condolences from me. May Allah place him in jannah. Be strong, Allah knows best.

4:56 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The circle of life is mysterious but the fact that you are carrying a life and to have lost one close to you explains that when God sends one angel to earth, He needs one back....our prayers are with your family

12:48 PM  
Anonymous a&a'smom said...

My deepest condolonce to you & your family.

4:25 PM  
Blogger Buaya69 said...

our condolences. but he suffereth no more. God be with him.

8:47 PM  
Blogger WMD: Wife, Mother, Daughter said...

My condolences.

3:16 PM  
Blogger raggedyanne said...

al-fatehah - my deepest condolences to you & your family.

3:41 PM  
Anonymous blackcadillac73 said...

Condolences from our family too.

3:48 PM  
Blogger Yan said...

alfatihah & takziah. ....

4:50 PM  
Blogger butterflutter said...

Alfatihah & takziah

1:41 PM  

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